BUILDING BLOCKS 2010

WE HE HE ELLLLL ! look who comes crawling back!

2010-05-31T19:25:00.000-07:00

Well I am ridiculously hopeless when It come to blogging....I'm SORRY :(

I have had a really hard time with the whole "comp prep" but who doesn't. BUT I am getting there.. I am very happy to say....

A few things have happened.... I have a new coach.... Ellena is fantastic but in all honesty I was the first person she prepped. She was hardcore which is also ok, but "I" felt like because she didn't have a problem sticking to the diet she didn't really understand why I did.

I'm seeing people to help with the self sabotage thing I do.... so I am confidant I am on the right road.

Thanks Hannah, Shannon and everyone that has given me kind words and support. Its kept me treading water as My family arnt as supportive.
Thank you. !!

NEW BLOG

2010-04-10T23:52:00.000-07:00

Come join me here!!

http://in-90-days.blogspot.com/2010/04/nitty-gritty.html

Update Pics :)

2010-03-26T22:13:00.000-07:00

Hi girlies :)

well its 14 and 1/2 weeks till the day !! excited much,lol
Thought I might put a couple of progress pics.
Training and Nurtrition are 100% and although I have not seen a big change in scale weight Im gettin leaner for shizzle.

Just wanna quick shout out to Hanny, babe. I hope this week see's you feeling much more awsomer (not a word, i know). xoxo

2010-03-08T10:54:00.000-08:00

OK, so Ive been cruising along and then all of a sudden I get a nice 4kg increase in scale weight!! WTF!!

I have an implant in my arm and being an extremely hormonal person its been running rampant for about a month, getting TTOM sporatically etc. I get very bloated, and have so much swelling that my my feet are even uncomfortable to walk on.

So, I am getting the little shit removed! and so help me god if I get pregnant!

I don't normally ever take diuretics or anything but I'm seriously considering it!lol

Being 17 weeks out I still have plenty of time but this has set me back cause its going to take a little bit to sort itself out.

I have an awesome training partner Marco, who has competed himself and has a very different way of training, I will never train the same again. I actually get a little scared before we train, that's how hard it is,lol. (SERIOUSLY)

Id better get some peaking biceps this year or shits gunna get real ugly. He is great because he is not afraid to tell me what I need to work on, sometimes quite blunt. For example, '' your biceps are shit! we have to work on those" thanks for that mate!

One thing he is not touching are my legs. (thank god)

Other than all of that all is as it should be, this time next week my weight will be settled and the bloat WILL be gone. I might post some progress pic soon..depending on whether i can find my camera,lol.

Hope all you girls are going real swell, and feeling great!!

T-dog

The power of belief

2010-02-27T23:41:00.000-08:00

The Picture above is a picture of a person, who has finally started to believe in herself!

Last Sunday I fell of the wagon.
On wednesday I had to see Ellena, she was aware of my mistake.
I gained 500g on the scales, and although it was probably just fluid, the lesson I learnt that day has changed me. For good.

I was just about to begin my Incline chest press and I could sense that she was really annoyed. I saud to her, "youre really pissed off arn't you?" she looked at me and said. "Tiarna, Im dissapionted." I felt like I had betrayed her.

I have had people say things to me like, it doesn't matter, everyone makes mistakes, get back on the wagon tomorrow...blah blah blah the dont really, truley care. Beacuse they normally have there own things going on. But I could tell that she actually really cared.

She said, " Tiarna, you could be a champion! physically you could!. But mentally, you are not where you need to be, and it takes both of those elements for you to be your best."

To have someone who barely knows me really care about if I succeed or not was the thing that made me start believing. Hey Im not silly, I know that its her name as well that could be at risk if I get up there looking shit. But it was more than that.

Yes its only been a week, but I can feel the switch has been flicked.

T-dog

2010-02-05T17:16:00.000-08:00

well, this week has been a bit hit and miss I tell ya!

I trained with Elena on Wednesday and she is very happy with how I am looking, its very comforting but then You always run the risk of the ol "well I can afford a chocci today cause I am on track'' trick, and the next thing you know you feel like a ten tonne Tessie!

but Im easing back to it, I had an intense craving last night and the bitch bet me, but I will not dwell. I dialled the emergency shanksy number and all was sweet ; ).

At 22 weeks out it feels really hard, cause your not exactly on a depletion diet so you feel a little aimless and its easy to lose focus really easily.

Scale weight is absolutely friggin extraordinary, I am the heaviest I have been in a Long time, but I am not as flabby. Still is hard to remember the aim of the game when you have these numbers burning there way through your retina's into your brain, which can easily set of a OMG I'm disgusting moment. But I'm smarter than that, and the scales...just quietly can kiss my arse.

I have a few job interviews this week, one which I am pretty excited about will let you know in due time.

I hope everyone is having a GREAT weekend, and all is going to plan.

Peace,
T-dog ;)

23 weeks out update shot!!

2010-01-28T22:05:00.000-08:00

Mind the excess flab, I start depletion in 7 weeks. Coach says I gotta stay like this till then :) Me thinks I have more muscle :) :)

Day 1 of 21

2010-01-24T17:50:00.000-08:00

Feeling GREAT!

Did some body attack this morning, I cant believe I don't get sick of it! followed that up with some leg training and a LOVELY Cajun chicken salad wrap with avocado :) SO good.

its interesting coach has me doing cardio by about 3 times a week, I do a little more because I feel my body is used to doing quite a bit, but she a tells me NO ARMS! so I have to sit on a shitty bike for 1/2 an hour with the RPMs above 100 on level 6, sounds easy but I struggle more with sitting there, the thought "OK, you have done enough" keeps running through my head and I nearly get off. Sheesh, that's my personal version of torture, I hate it.

Everything else is going great, Ill hear back from Uni in a couple of weeks and then I have my BF 30th wooohooo!

so any hoo I think it my turn to do the 7 things you might not know about me.

1. When I was 3 years old my mother left the iron on, and unattended and I decided it would be fun to Iron my hand. I still have a nasty scar on my left hand from it...ouch :(

2. I lived in Fiji for a year when I was 16, OMG I got up some mischief. My Pupa smurf (dad) was the general manager of the two sheraton resorts on Denaru Island.

3. I spend allot of time in my head, always weighing things up. I have a bad habit of analysing people. But...ask my husband. I'm pretty much on the money with my thoughts.

4. I want boobies!

5. The only thing I hate in the world is people who are nasty to kids or animals!

6. Im going to win the lottery. I already have it planned. I wont tell my hubby, Ill just drive him to a Haines Hunter boat store and say. Baby, go pick yourself a boat out...where in the money :) then Ill get drunk on Moey ;)

7. this one is deep..... I doubt myself and my capabilities EVERYDAY, and this is my biggest weakness.

so there it is :)

Peace,
T-dog

Long time no update!!

2010-01-22T01:07:00.000-08:00

Hi all bloggers :)

Sorry I have been so busy lately so some things have had to take a back seat, although I do chat to alot of you on facebook,lol.

So.....

things I am up to this year,

Competing in July ;)
Second year of Uni - hopefully
Saving for our first house.
Training a couple of people for their first comp.

and everything that comes in between when your a mum and wife.

We are in Melbourne currently and Its so nice to be close to Brads family, feels like they are my own.

So I know its short but I have to get myself into bed! I am doing the thousand steps in Dandenong ranges in the morning. OMG! Fantastic for the legs.

I really hope everyone is doing wonderfully. So who's competing this year????

Take Care
Tdog

Quick Progress shot ;)

Bottom photo was taken at roughly 23 weeks out last year, the photo on top was taken 24 weeks out from July comp2010

A new chapter

2009-11-14T02:05:00.000-08:00

Well It sure has been a while!

I have been so busy its not funny. The family and I are moving to Melbourne on Dec 1st, Brad will be leaving next Friday to drive down and I will be spendinf another week with my dad and sisters on the south side of brissie, before I take the girls down.

A couple Of thing to report;

Post comp: feeling much better now, getting back on track! Weight : 76 so thats + 7kg from comp day weight, I feel every gram,lol.

I have a new trainer Ellena Tsatos

she is friigin awsome and want to have me ready for the INBA in April, we will see. I was thinking the All Females, but she wants me to do both.

Training is intense, I try to lift as heavy as I can, thats what I am used to, but she wants me to train a lil different, and I am cool with that.

I have been studying for exams which are on Monday, Wednesday and Friday next week. Physiology and Anatomy....... need I say more!

Im working on losing a few kgs before christmas, I wanna sit at no more than 5kg above comp weight, however I do have to come in MUCH leaner this time. Im working everyday at making this a lifestyle thing, so Im not getting to upset about setbacks at all.

well Ihope everyone else is doing well, and thanks to you all for your support.

If you think you cant. MY before and afters!!

2009-10-19T23:51:00.001-07:00

I was so embaressed I made sure my sister cut of my head so the people at the pharmacy were I got my film developed wouldn't know it was me. :(

SAY WHAT !!!!

2009-10-19T22:13:00.001-07:00

hahahah thought this was appropriate with how Im feeling :) lol

Well this aint much fun!

2009-10-12T21:11:00.000-07:00

Well long time no post , thought i would visit blog land and see how everyone is doing. Personally I feel like a 10 tonne tessie and feel horrible. A lady at my gym asked me this morning if I was feeling Sad or angry beacuse I dont look like what i did before, that and the fact the I dont think I have had ONE clean day since comp,lol. Whoops a daisy :)

My answer was NO! Im not sad and Im not angry, I mean sure it would be nice If i could easily get back on track but its very, very hard at the moment. I am struggling with the fact that If I want to look like that all the time, I am going to have to be strict like that all the time. Am I ready for that? Do I want it that bad. hmmmmmmm

So every night before I have been going to bed I have been telling myself that I wall get back into it, I know I will.
But Im not waiting for bedtime anymore, today I was fine till lunch then being lazy instead of cooking some vegies I ate bread with lemon spread, 2 icy poles and a fun size chocolate. Now normally I would keep eating crap, but not this time. Im not going to lose another day to absolute bullshit excuses. Im hardening up! It has only been three weeks since comp, I cant have completely undone my hard work.

Mentally I feel fine, which is strange, I guess its cause I have been here before. Hope everyone else is having an easier time post comp.

Peace,
T.

Got my professional pics !!

2009-10-01T00:49:00.000-07:00

And I can say I am STOKED with how it turned out, I was far from perfect but alot better than what I thought I was. Thankyou so much to you ladies who gave me so much support!! especially..... Shannon, Vicki, Tara, Kristin, Hannah. xoxo

Bring on next year!!!!!

COMP PICS :)

2009-09-23T02:59:00.000-07:00

SO..........

I got some great feedback from the judges which was awsome, they said it was my legs that let me down, and although I had "sensational" thickness,lol I was NOT lean enough. But i did know that. So im going to bunker down and work on that over the next 6 months and see what happens, I cool with how I went, I placed 4th it was a great line up and we all deserved to be up there. I was stoked to get a call out!!

I was told I had the best abs of the day!!!! thats right the DAY WTF!!! gotta be a lil chuffed with that,lol. Very happy :)

Hannah and Kristen were beautiful and it was so good to be there with people who were genuine and passionate about it!! congrats girls WE MADE IT!!!

PS Shansky... thankyou for being my slapper I know you enjoyed it so,lol..... seriously though I knew i had some work to do when she was slappen away and everything was moving. I said " haha Shannon, that shouldn't be moving like that should it, lol" she looked at me and just had a giggle.... that was when i knew. hahahahha

Opinions please!!!

2009-09-11T00:34:00.000-07:00

Tell me what you think of my make up!!!

So this was a trail run and Im doing it myself so its not the best but it will have to do! but please any advice would be awsome :)

oh for FS!!

2009-09-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

So its getting close... real close!!

How am I feeling? well ...ok, I feel like I have soooo far to go and so little time to do it in. But today I have come to the conclusion that I have given it all Ive got. Im dissapionted in myself already knowing just how much I have cheated along the way (diet wise) Im even a little angry at myself about it but I do have to let it go.

I talk to alot people along the way who say things like " I never cheat" It makes me feel een worse!

I am still VERY heavy on the scales above the 70kg mark... now tell me, how in hell could I even be close to where I am supposed to be when Im still above 70kgs!! F*#ck it!! I have a hurdle exam on monday which will determine if I continue in a particular course and OF COURSE its the hardest part of the course its on anatomy!!! easy you say. I dont think so....

WE have to know ALL bones and muscles there origin, insertion, action and Innervation!! good luck to me :(

If ever there was a time for me to quit it would be now!

70 kgs WTF

And the fatteth Bummeth is leaving thy building!!!! AT LAST

2009-08-29T20:38:00.000-07:00

sorry bout the but crack :) :)

Fat bum !

2009-08-18T21:14:00.000-07:00

Now, Im a little worried....

I have 4 and a half weeks until Im stepping up on stage with virtually nothing on and I still have a fat arse! I have this perminate dimple, that i have ALWAYS had and it just wont go. You would think that 4 and a half weeks out I would be a little tighter.... but Im not, it doesnt look nice at all!!

oh i dont know......

Framework

2009-08-16T03:22:00.000-07:00

Its so strange to finally be on the "countdown" to the comp. Last night I sat down and with the help of Vicki's pure awsomeness I was able to devise the plan right down to what I have after stepping off the stage, and because I did that.... Im totally in the zone!

I feel different, more in control.... Im stoked!

Brad is away this weekend, so training is hard but this morning i took the girls in the pram all 28kgs of them and took them for a run... yes run! I cant believe how bloody fit I felt and if you have ever been to Caloundra there is some nasty hills! Came home cleaned the house top to bottom, got all the washing done, meals cooked ... everything!

I have Uni all tomorrow, then placement on Tues & Weds down in Caboolture. So between dropping kids off, and picking them up, training, eating, sleeping.... oh Im buggered!
Gosh Im a whinger hey, lol....

So I may be a little MIA, but ill still be lurking.

Good luck over the next few weeks to everyone, our rides nearly over!!
Peace out!
T.

2009-08-14T23:00:00.000-07:00

Im sorry.... what???

2009-08-13T22:38:00.000-07:00

meh! I feel like crud!

scales and measurements are just not reflecting what I think they should and its really PISSING me OFF!

So Ive cut cheats out and one would think that they scales and measurements would go down but alas, they have not.

Im tired, cranky warn out and friggin over it. I dont feel like this fat is EVER going to come off my arse, seriously.....I only have 5 weeks and Im still FAT! I can honestly say that I have been doing everything in my power and I am still hitting a brick wall.

Stinking head games!

a chick say's to me the other day " are you still competeing?'' and then followed it up with "who's doing youre diet?" I could have punched her!

Im sorry but I should LOOK like im doing a comp by now shouldnt I???

tomorrow will b better!

Hope everyone is going well and training hard :0 not long now 36 36 36 36 36 36 36 36 36

39 Days

2009-08-11T04:11:00.000-07:00

Meh.... whats with the ginormous gappage!!
thats the second pressie I get for having 2 kidlets

Im still alive and sorry that I have been soooo slack in blogging but I simply have NO time!! between Uni the kids training the kids and placement at caboolture I has been bloody busy!!

I had a shithouse weekend, felt a little flat and felt like Im NEVER goingt o get lean enough, I still feel that way but Im not dwelling on it im just pushing through the head games! It was this time last year I pulled out!

Had a much better day today, so I feel more focused. I have lines coming up in the legs so thats great, I still have rather doughy looking arms which really shits me to tears, hopefully the next 39 days of sensation eating and attitude will help bring my baby bi's out.

My arms and my arse need ALOT of work I feel. Oh, we are our harshest critics are we not! Abs are passable but not chaching.... (negative nancy leaving now)

But I feel GREAT! even though Im beaing realistic I still feel great!! weird hey,lol

Up ya bum

2009-08-04T21:23:00.000-07:00

woops a daisy!!

Had a lil bit of a low carb moment today and ran up the arse of an old fella..... bugger!

He was all shitty at me, Im sorry Mr Ahole, have you never had an accident or made a mistake.... oh silly me, you must be perfect.

So anyhoo the only damage that I did was crack the plastic on the number plate, I took photo's with my phone so the ol codger cant take me for a ride..... cant trust anyone,lol. Anyway, silly man obviously needs to get his eye's checked. GREEN MEANS GO!! even my 5 year old knows that!!

on other notes everything a SAWEET! in mightymouses words :)
still cheat free and caruuusing along (thats mine) lol.

Spoke to Jo today and she has sent out my Bikini..... woop woop. I think it may have helped that I ordered super early. Think I might go and see her one Friday soon, get this posing thing down! Anyone wanna go halvies ????

Well just a quick check in, I hope we are all kicking butt out there in blogland. Keep it up!!

Peace,
T-dog

Shit YEH!!

2009-08-03T03:24:00.000-07:00

Feeling Fabulous today!!

I had to resit an exam and I PASSED!!! YAY!!!

So 4/4 courses so far..... ahhhhhhhh

On other news had a huuuuge conversation with shanskies (Shannon) last night and it really helped. (thanks babe)

Feeling better been clean, 47 days to go!

Tara, Hannah how you girlies doing?

So Im starting to totally believe in myself as I have found that this, not my physical ability is what has been hampering me. I have been weight training for 2 and half years for this next 47 days and NOTHING is gunna stop me, not even my own brain.

47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47 47

Much better

2009-08-01T15:05:00.000-07:00

Feeling much, much better today ....phew. Thanks Kristen!

I guess I just had a moment, this dieting stuff is really hard hey.lol It not easy to try and juggle family life and comp prep at the same time especially when your hubby is never home! but its ok Ive done 101 days so far with only 49 to go... and by GOD I am not giving UP!!

My goal is to be cheat free for 49 days.... I dont care that in the past I have not done it I just care that I do it now, this is so important to me. I will do this.

7ty5 fricken WHAT!!

2009-08-01T02:20:00.000-07:00

yep, thats how much im a weighen... WTF

I feel like a ten ton tessie, yes I believe Im getting smaller and I have Im nearly a size 10 well in some things I am but im not small enough yet that they all fit so how the F can I be 75kgs..... Im freaking out.... I wanna cry and I feel like throwing in the towel. I was just telling Tara that I go SUPER for about 5 days and then on day 6 and 7 in the arvo I just cave in!!!

I honestly dont feel like I could go 7 weeks without a cheat....I cant's even go a week..... ok real bad day.... breath..... Im ending this post now... I already sound like a NUT,lol.

So so

2009-07-20T20:26:00.000-07:00

So not much to report on planet Tiarna, still cruising along and Im feeling a bit more confidant with how Im looking... but lets not get exited, I still got a looong way to go.

I have no idea how manly mls I am, I have no clue how much I weigh. Im going by feel I will start to weigh myself soon I do know they will be up atm cause I fell of the wagon a couple days back.

So you see why I have not been posting.. nothing really to report.
I failed one of my exams :( luckily it was only by 2% so I get a re-sit. This time I will not have to hurry through it so I can pick up a sick kid!!!

8 & 1/2 weeks to go!
Exited..uh huh
Nervous... uh huh

Hope your all well
T.

Dont tell me Im not a runner!

2009-07-13T21:15:00.000-07:00

Well its so great to hear that everyone had a good experience at the all females and shanskie's YOU ROCK!! did I not say she had a rockin bod!

well ive tightned everything right up now for the tail end of my comp journey, Ive laid the foundations and now its time to get serious. The time so far has gone so quick I know that this next 9 weeks will fly by as well.

Ive cut out free meals, changes my cardio plan and Im heading in on auto pilot, Im not trying anymore, Im doing. Luckily I can get away with having a fair few calories, so I decided to take them a little higher and Im cycling my carbs a little.

Must say Im excited, I took some progress shots last Saturday and I am happy. I mean Im not Olympia material or anything but I have worked hard these past 5 years to change my life around. I have done that, and Im STOKED so anything from here is a bonus.

This is me 5 years and two babies ago!

NOICE!

taken 04th January, the next day I went for my first "jog" lasted 2.5 mins.

I ran 27 kms that October.

Its all bout the GUNS!!

2009-07-06T23:16:00.000-07:00

OMG people, you heard it hear first....

Shannon has the wickedest upperbody EVER!!

You wait till shes all tanned up, ride it out girl. The hard work has paid off, you look a million bucks!!

GOOODDD LLLUUUCCKKK!

xoxoxox

Sleep Deprivation

2009-07-04T18:43:00.000-07:00

Im am friggen tired.

Im eating comp, living comp, talking comp, and sleeping it. All in all Im over IT!

I go to sleep at night and its the last thing on my mind, I wake in the morning and its the first thing I think of. I know that this is probably quite normal but for god friggin sake,lol.

Im enjoying the journey but you really do get a bit over how consuming it is. Took some progress pics last night and I was happy with how they came out, still holding abit of squishyness in place but thats cool.

Im not really sure how many mls I am because the person who does my mls has not got back to regarding an appt time, Im thinking it pretty rude actually. I dont understand Personal Trainers who dont return calls or emails....whats with that?? I think I might go to an old trainer of mine.

Training is Saweet since a added more carbs, Diet has been 100% too. Had a free meal last night of lasagna and I couldnt even finish my dessert, hubby was shocked. Actually, so was I.

Still not sure if I will do the ANB comp... not interested in doing a routine AT ALL, waiting around all day to do it later on, really puts me off.

Jeeze Im a bit of a sook this morning arnt I? lol.

Other than that, nothing much else to report. Hope everyone is going well with their preps, its so cool how many of us are doing them:)

Cheers,
T.

8 weeks and this is what I have to show so far!

2009-06-30T20:32:00.000-07:00

It feels good to know that I have made these changes in 8 weeks, makes me feel alot more confidant in my abilities for the next 12 weeks!!

Feeling really good again, I think i was a bit low on the ol carbs so I bumped up my intake a little and Im feeling much better. Going to catch up with Shannon next week, cant wait to see the the spunkrat! I bet she is gunna look the goods! oh and If you reading this Shan, my phones shat itself so Ill text you anoher number shortly:)

peace,
T.

Crapping Myself!!

2009-06-27T16:55:00.000-07:00

For some reason I'm absolutely shitting myself, the fact that the comp is now 12 weeks out is making me anxious. I'm worried that my legs wont come down, that my arse is to... well... freely moving. That I just plainly will stuff it all up.

Cause I really know that I'm not pulling out and no matter what I have to get up on that stage. But perhaps this is a good thing that I'm worried, maybe this will keep me in check. I don't want to stuff this up. So I'm really determined to put it in for the next 12 weeks, I'm so bloody motivated at the moment its hard for me to sit here long enough to type this,lol.

Taking the family to the races today, its a family fun day. The girls are gonna love it!

Take care all.

T.

12 weeks and 2 days to go. So....

2009-06-25T05:44:00.000-07:00

Im going to have a couple of days completely OFF!

I have my husband home on leave, and my kids are home so I decided before I put myself into "the mode" Im going to have a couple of days to enjoy with my family beacuse Im going to need there help over these coming weeks.

Im feeling good and confidant in my abilities for the next 3 months I know there will be ups and downs but Im going to do this it will be to the best of my ability. (I DO NOT plan on competeing again.)

So we are going to pack up the kids and go camping!

check in a couple of days, Its time to bring it home Hannah and Kristen are you guys with me :) :)

I is so, so tired!

2009-06-23T02:50:00.000-07:00

Today has been a tough one, Im bloody hungry, bloody tired, and over it all. I managed to get in my bodyattack class, followed by glutes and then a little afternoon session of cardio and abs. Nothing incredibly amazing to report, all is well and Im travelling on ok. I got out the comp heels and did a couple of poses in front of hubby. He reckons the only place that I have visible cellulite is on my arse..... now that was a surprise....NOT!

Yeh im feeling leaner, feel like Im looking a little better blah blah I cant be bothered at all,lol. My losses are still around the 3 mls a week so I am on track with that, but visually not a crapload of difference in the past couple of weeks. On a different note,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHELLEY!!!
I really hope you have had a wonderful day:)

Im going to bed to get ready for my much better day that I am going to have tomorrow.

T.

2009-06-18T23:49:00.000-07:00

Progress so far

73.5 kg down from 81kgs

below 80 mls!! 8 sites around 13% BF

Can I get a WOOP WOOP,lol.

Taking my little one out tonight, she her first report card :) ohh my little moushka is gettin big.

Peace out

Is that a light at the end of the tunnel?

2009-06-17T11:27:00.000-07:00

I was thinking about Kristin's post on why would you want to compete as this really strikes a chord with me. Ive been on and off training for a comp for three years and when I am asked this question, well, I cannot answer it properly.

In all honesty the thought of getting up in front of complete strangers, virtually naked does not really appeal to me. (I mean I can post pictures of myself in a bikini on the net, but you still have a sense of ridiculous anonymity). The answer for me is much deeper, I still cannot put it into words properly or even think it 100% but its more of a feeling of drive and inner strength.

I am worth it. I will and can do it, I deserve it. But still there is something else I just cant put my finger on... I believe it something to do with my childhood as silly as it might sound. But this time I'm not trying to prove myself to anyone, only myself, hold on. That's not entirely true, I am trying to be a good role model, so I guess I am trying to prove myself to others. I do also enjoy getting approval from my peers, oh blimey... see what I mean.

Why do we push ourselves??

On that note, Im off to train.

2009-06-12T00:13:00.002-07:00

My NEW TEETH!!! woo hoo, still got a couple of teeth to sort out but im pretty happy with the result....now I can have an apple and corn,lol

3 days of BLISS

2009-06-09T18:25:00.000-07:00

Hi all :)

Im curretnly down the goldie with my two beautiful sister with NO KIDS!!! 3 sleep ins... well kinda. THis morning I work up at 7:30 wich is a sleep in for my, soooo nice.

I then hit the gym with 40 mins cardio raced back woke my poor baby sister and did a little metabolic sesh with her, poor bugger. SHe is thanking me know though.

BIG NEWS

My braces should be coming off today....YAY!

Ill post some pics later on. Traning is still great im not being to killer with my nutrition over the next 3 days about 80 - 90% cleaqn everyday is what Im aiming for myself.

Well I gotta go, hopefully be back later with some beautiful straight chompers to show you!

ADVICE PLEASE

2009-06-06T20:49:00.000-07:00

OMG!!

How quickly is the time going??

So I have a couple of questions, does anyone know much about divisions and stuff? I know Im getting ahead of myself but how can a novice competitior (INBA) qualify for the Olympia's? there is a NABBA/WFF about a week or so earlier if I placed in that federation, (not that I would cause there all on the gear)lol. would that allow me to compete as intermediate?? Its all soooo confusing, Im just really curious?

or can I skip the novice and go straight to intermediate or open or whatever its called? Please dont think that I think im really good or whatever but one wouldn't mind to have a stab at the olympia, what have I got to lose??

Cheers Girlies,

PS, down to 80 mls - 9 sites..... 45 to go!!!

The results so far!

2009-06-01T18:38:00.000-07:00

4.5 weeks ago Today
Weight 82kgs 75.5kgs
Height 177cms 177 cms
Waist 76cms 71cms
Hips (high) 93cms 88cms
Hips (low) 110cms!! 104cms(stubborn shit)
Thighs(biggest) 66cms 61cms
Biceps 33cms 32.5cms

How am I feeling?
Pretty happy, Im a little tired but I cant complain. I just want it to hurry up so I can say "There, I did it!"

Its pretty crazy at my house at the moment, brad has to go away again but this time its down to Victoria as his lovely sister just gave birth to a still born baby boy. Devastated is not the word for it. My heart is really, really sad for them.

Im just so so so so bloody luck to have what I do, put it all into perspective. Well speaking of family hubby and I are home alone today.........

See ya :)

How Long?

2009-05-28T20:59:00.000-07:00

With 16 weeks to go I'm starting to really grasp that its getting closer and closer as weird as that sounds. I cant believe how quickly the time is moving.

I trained this morning hill sprints and then shoulders at the gym later, I'm getting nice compliments and its so nice to know that you heading in the right direction. In all honesty I DO NOT get a big head I actually always get embarrassed and change the subject. Every time!! I don't need approval from anyone else but to get feedback, that is what I do need. I don't mind someone telling me that I need to work on particular areas, I take in what they say, I interpret what they say, then I Investigate. I research.
After all I would be a fool to take just one persons advice and Ignore all others.

Some trainers say go hard, some say, ease into it. I say do what you know is best at the time, when you learn better, better is what you will do!

I get hungry, I feed my body. I want to feel fit and strong, I train. I want to get lean, I consistently do both. You dont have to be perfect and I think that is the BIGGEST mountain that people cant get over. They think " I crap, I blew it. Well mise-a-well eat till I explode". Consistently eating crap = feeling tubby and feeling crap.
Consistently eating well and training = Feeling fit, healthy and Looking how you want to.

Its not rocket science, but I'm sure, deep down we ALL know this.... but its the few that are not afraid to climb back on that succeed. :)

shit, that was more in depth the I though, lol

Hope it makes sense.

T.

4 weeks down - 17 to go!!

2009-05-25T03:20:00.000-07:00

well at the moment I'm just chilling out, kids are in bed including hubby and I have the biggest mammoth pile of clothing to fold. Wish I was Mary Poppins!!

Im still cruisin, I had a couple of days last week that were not 100% but Im not worried about it really.

Im getting so much fitter, I feel really great and I can fit into all of my clothes which I'm really stoked about. Another few weeks and they will be too big :) Im getting compliments too which is really nice, but nothing beats the way I feel when I wake up.

Had a killer chest workout today:

Incline bb press 30kg - 3x30 reps (each set closely followed by squats and step ups to keep heart rate up.)

Cable fly 3x30 supersetted with 30 push ups (on toes) No rest

Wide deep unassisted dips, dips and more dips.

And then trained lil babe tri's

Finally!

2009-05-21T21:34:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning to two almost normal functioning nostrils! ha ha I really must have a very boring life If im reduced to talking about my airways,lol.

On other news Brad is finally home today so I get some help with the kiddies at last. ahh Just got back from docs after my 2nd round of hep b shots, hopefully I dont get sick this time!

Measured my hips this morning out of curiosity and I have lost 6cms in roughly 4 weeks! uh huh Im on a roll still.

I LOVE Saturday mornings... there is a class every Saturday morning that I always go to Its AWESOME. Very VERY hard!! Its like a bit PT session for a full class. 45 mins and 500- 600 cals later.... yes I bullshit you not! My HR does not go below 145bpm the whole time!!

ok, enough pointless chat.

Hope your all well,
T.

Measurement update!!

2009-05-18T22:47:00.000-07:00

Well Im happy as a pig in shit to report that I lost 20mls in the past 3 weeks!!! woop woop.
Just another 50 to go,lol. 19 weeks to do it in :)

Piece of piss, I had a few treats on Sunday night and I kind celebrated my little victory with a few lollies just now, bugger it...oh well. Im now seeing Kelli fortnightly, Im now doing 30 rep sets on top on 50 rep sets down the bottom.... shit!!! Start shredding some of that intramuscular fat. She reckons I have plenty of muscle so I do not need to build anymore, kinda disappointed in a way... love showing some of the little guys at the gym up,lol.

No in all seriousness, Im going well. Been having some pretty intense craving of late but I know its just that cycle you go through.

Well Im off now to cook the girls some dinner.

Well done to all the girls who competed on the weekend, you all looked wonderful. I got some good shots of everybody, Shelley, Katie and Selina if you guys want them. Don't be freaked out, I just thought I would take a few just in case.

Take Care all.

Tiarna

Update!

2009-05-15T04:00:00.000-07:00

So Im yet to master the picture taking skills when on ones own... hence the angle, this is after 4 and a bit weeks leaning out with 18 more to go. Im pretty happy with it, but we will just have to see. I think I may have a little more size than last year. Ill try to to the whole comparison shot thing one day,lol.

I have been horribly sick these past couple of days, so training has been no go, but that's ok. Did you now how bad it is to train while you are sick, It can KILL you, no shit. Ill try to find the paper work on it to back up that claim.

Nutrition has been spot on still, going on three weeks and I haven't cheated once!! like I said in my previous posts, I'M ON FIRE!!

Gotta a long way to go though, but I'm still all excited,lol. Can't wait to catch up with the girls on Sunday.

Well Im off to bed. KNACKERED!

2009-05-11T18:13:00.000-07:00

Just sitting down in my nice quite house...ahhhhh. Carbless bar and a cup of tea...nice. Just did body attack! been six years and I still love that class. Does not matter how fit you are if you work hard it will KILL you,lol.

Just caught up with a couple of friends who are competing in the net few week, Bianca Aiono
http://biancaaiono.blogspot.com/and Amanda Brett, its Amanda's first show but Bianca has been down the road a few times. They both look AWESOME!

Im still cruising along with everything and as I was saying to Bianca "Im in the ZONE" don't know how or why but I have been doing really well lately. Very proud of myself:)

Measurements on Tuesday so hopefully that reflects my kick arse few weeks.

On other news, I found out that my mum will be coming up from VIC in August which is good but my mum, well Isn't the most maternal person in the world and my kids don't really have a bond with her. Which really hurts. I go the park and I see kids playing with there mums and grandma's and I wish that my mum would be like that.

So if there are any grandma's out there who would like to adopt two lovely children as gran kids drop me a line,lol.

Enough of that now I have to go and clean my house, have a good one girls :)

2009-05-09T15:22:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

Because our job is the most important one!

God I'm Lucky

2009-05-08T13:33:00.000-07:00

(This is Ariarna, aka, smiliest kid in the world. Tahli was still asleep)

Just taking the time out this morning to appreciate how lucky I am, as a someone I knew lost a son last week..

Here I am posting about OMG I have to lose body fat and build muscle. Made my heart ache.

So I decided to write about what I most love and what Im lucky to have.

I have a wonderful husband, who loves me. Im lucky that he didn't give up asking me out over 8 years ago after numerous knock backs.

I have two beautiful daughters, who are the most lovely natured kids in the world. Im lucky to wake up to them every single morning.

I have a Super dad, who somehow manages to keep everybody happy. He's also proud of me. (that's lucky)

I have a fantastic relationship with my husbands parent's and family. They are like my own.

My friends, especially the ones that you can be around all the time and never get sick of. Im lucky they put up with me. xo

There are many more things I am lucky for, but these are the ones that are closest to my heart.

2009-05-07T03:26:00.000-07:00

Well I am cruising along quite nicely atm, feeling good and I am starting to see some changes, thank the lord!!

Was doing my ridiculous 3x30 40kg lunges..OUCH! that I noticed that I am getting a little more definition in my quads, so that's awesome. Still have a looonnnggg way to go but Im enjoying my little victory. My tummy is much more flat and Im so excited that I am already tossing and turning in bed at night thinking about it.

Will pay for my bikini tomorrow, so Im just about all set, just gotta keep practicing my posing. I really suck at posing. But im guessing the hotter I look the more I will wanna see myself, lol.

Think I might need another session with shelley pretending to punch the air out of my stomach to get my abs through... shit that was funny, works a treat though :)

Take care,
T.

T-minus 11 days till measurements and progress shots!!

15 days...

2009-05-04T20:18:00.000-07:00

I have another 15 days before I go for my measurements, and Im a little worried. Im just not sure If Im losing enough I know its only been 4 weeks but the scales have not budged in two weeks and Im not looking much leaner.

I spoke to a friend of mine, who is also a trainer and she confirmed what I thought I might have to try.

Now because of my thyroid I do have to be a little more stringent with my meal plans, so I have decided that I am putting my nutrition first. Before training or anything else, I am taking out yogurt and fruit for a while to see how this effects my results, I do have only 19 weeks and I'm not giving myself any excuse not to get up on that stage.

So... its time i put on my big girl boots and go down the road I need to in order to be in the best condition I can be in. I need to lose 60 mils.

Now I know that some people don't like to take mils/body fat etc, but I need to, I need to know exactly where I am at in order to know exactly where I need to go.

Tell me what you think...please

2009-05-03T04:04:00.001-07:00

TIARNA COMPETITION PREPERATION DIET 20 WEEKS OUT

M1 –

Coffee or tea with 1 sugar and skim milk + 40g oats and 1 scoop protein powder + ½ cup skim milk.

M2 –

1 banana + 100g chicken breast OR small can tuna + green apple

M3 –

8 egg whites + 250g mixed Vegetables + 30g light cheese

M4 –

100g chicken breast + 150g steamed vegetables + 100g sweet potato

M5 –

120g chicken breast + 200g vegetables + 250g strawberries

Plus cup tea + 1 sugar

Jalna yogurt 200g – if hungry

Supplements

Multi vitamin
Vitamin c
Magnesium
Fish oil X 4
L- Glutamine
Creatine
BCAA

Approx Macro's

Calories - 1750

Fat - 28.3

Protein - 184.8

What do you think??

2009-05-02T21:27:00.000-07:00

Ok guys here is my diet at 20 weeks out, Im changing a few things. Take a look and tell me what you think....please :)

Calories = 1719
Fat = 15 % plus 4 Fish oil Supps
Carbs = 40%
Protein = 45%

Free meal every 14 days.

I really need to start shifting some fat!!

Call the fire brigade!!

2009-04-29T22:33:00.000-07:00

Im on FIRE!!

Feeling awesome today and for the past week I might add, Just cruising along with my diet, kicking arse with my training and loving this new head space I have found.

In my mind I am already in comp condition, ( i just dont know why my size 10 jeans dont fit yet,lol)

I can see it in my mind, I can feel in my belly!

Its so strange the way life throws you some heavy bullshit, I cant stress enough to those of you out there that are having a hard time with the dieting thing. Just how much of an effect you head space can have on your everything.

Believe me when I say, that one day it will be your turn, you will get there... if.... YOU DONT GIVE UP!

Im sure Shelley will agree with me on that one :)

Dont look into your past to see your future, it doesn't matter how many stuff ups you have along the way, you only fail when you throw in the towel.

Ok, Im off to do my cardio.

Take care,
T.

2009-04-28T03:13:00.000-07:00

The most Important thing is not to win, but to take part. The most important thing in life is not the triumph, but the attempt. The essential thing is not to have conquered, but to have fought well.

All to true..... I still plan on kicking arse though!

Banana Chips!

2009-04-24T21:44:00.000-07:00

100g's Banana Chips = 500 CALORIES...... so ask me how i know this.

Cause I ate a heap of the bloody things at the movies with my daughter, you know so I wouldn't eat chocolate and pop corn. Low and Fu*%$n behold they where a shit load worse than anything I could have eaten.

I thought, dried banana... yeah that should be ok, what... do the deep fry the shit!

I have been so fatigued these past couple of days, this morning I Dragged myself out of bed, ok, Ariarna was screaming for her bottle, but I got up. Raced around like a blue arse fly to make it to 8.15 circuit class, which mind you is bloody awesome the dude knows how to CANE you!!

Got to the gym and it was closed. I could have cried.

This last week has been pretty hard for me, not sure why. I have been going really awesome up till then, its really bad though because I think about the comp all the bloody time its frigging annoying me already, Im not concentrating on my uni work cause Im scared im going to stuff up my nutrition, blah blah blah. I need to focus, and be positive. That's what I need. I need to deal with issues one at a time and stop worrying about,

1. Failing again
2. Being the chick who tried to compete but never did.
3. Pick one nutrition plan and stick to it ( Im all over the place with this, its really bad. I did well on still having my 2-3 coffees a day, yes I have sugar. The weight still fell off me.)
You get so many people telling how to do things, that atm I feel a little lost....

I think I will keep doing what I have been, with my coffee and reassess at say 16 weeks out. I get my braces off in 7 weeks and I wouldn't mind feeling lovely when that happens too.

As of today Ive lost 4 kgs 82 down to 78, has been up though these last couple of days...
and Ive lost 3cms of my hips :)

So I am getting there. Its been 4 weeks since I started although I did have a week of around Easter so really three weeks.

Well I hope everyone is happy and is having a wonderful time this weekend.

Grandpa Mitch, Im thinking of you today and Im so grateful that you help make Australia what it is today for my family.

Thankyou, and Nanamitch misses you everyday. xoxoxo

PICS 150 DAYS TO GO!!!

2009-04-23T00:21:00.000-07:00

So I was going to keep these to myself but I figure, Im not embarressed about myself and besides you guys are apart of my journey too, So here I am with 150 days to go! (sorry the quality is crappy)
Tell me what ya think :), dont fluff it, I appreciate honesty!

Im going to post pics every 4 weeks to keep me honest. Oh and mind the posing, thats something I need to practice........ allot,lol.

I think my wagon has broken wheels!

2009-04-22T03:47:00.000-07:00

Cause I came off today.....

and I should have known it was coming, I recovered myself from near misses all day, but then the shitty phone call I had was the straw, and I repeated history. Or did I ?

I shouldn't actually get totm's because I have Implanon... however got it today.. I finished my stir fry and I was full, but not 1 hour later and my tummy was BURNING!! now this is happening to me quite allot. Usually I just go to bed and deal with it, Ive increased my Cals to 1700 but still that horrible burn.

I once had a trainer tell me that that burn was what I should be feeling and to embrace it!! what a load of horseshit!! My body is hungry!!

HOWEVER

I had not prepped my food as well as what I should have as I ran short of time and my breakfasts have not been substantial enough.

My week has consisted of studying for an assessment exam, running kids to schools, myself to Uni, cleaning houses, cooking dinners and training and getting sick again, doctors appointments. All by myself, Ive got no one to help, so you know what, bugger it.

Ive been doing a good job lately, today was just one day that got on top of me and tomorrow I will make sure that I give myself what I need in order to complete whatever it is that I need to do.

I just talked myself right out of that one didn't I, lol.

Back to school

2009-04-20T02:56:00.000-07:00

Well, it has begun. The crazy mornings in my house trying to get it all done, Brad has been away for the past two weeks, not that he is here a whole lot anyway,lol.

Got home at 5 after Uni and picking the girls up and cooked, cleaned, cooked, bathed the girls, bedtime duties and now I'm studying again... phew.

Got in a good training session this morning, felt awesome and organised at uni... its all happening. Ive been eating heaps of egg whites lately, I mix them with frozen veg and a tsp of cheese, yummo!

Ive had another round of blood tests, find out the results on Friday... so sick of blood tests!!

On a completely random note, have you ever noticed how people change when they become successful? I mean fundamentally they are the same but they just don't find the time for the common friends or courtesy, actually shits me to tears....

Never burn bridges, you never know if you will have to cross them again....

160 WHAT!!

2009-04-15T18:10:00.000-07:00

Shit, they look bigger than I thought!

Feeling rather happy with myself today after completely smashing my legs today, waited till last exercise to do my leg press...160kgs. mmm hmmm! I probably shouldn't go this heavy but I just cant help myself, next week is a high rep week so ill bring it right back down.

Nutrition - tick

Training - tick

Motivation -tick

Im on fire I tell ya, lol.

after checking out the above photo, i think it might be time to bring the weight down. Im not liking the size too much but hopefully when I start to lean out they will look allot better.

Well I'm off to study, have a great day :)

Stinkin easter....

2009-04-13T01:29:00.000-07:00

This is my sis and I

My babies :)

Well Im the one that blew it! I ate and I drank and I was merry :)

My girls and I went and spent a few days camping with my dad and sisters in Brunswick Heads it was really lovely a little hard with Ari and Tahli on occasion with the whole sleeping thing, but it was really nice to get away.

I did have my chicken and veg with me, but honestly I just relaxed a little, I did eat too much but Im back now and its OK.

Im contemplating the use of scales and body fat measurements etc, deciding how I should track my results, Im not a fan of this whole getting on the scales every day thing. But is that because as of late I have not been 100% with my diet??? not sure.

Anyway I had a really nice time but now at 23 weeks out I'm starting my leaning now, I have a way to go and I want to be ready this time and make sure I give it 100% from the beginning.

I hope you all had a wonderful Easter.

T xo

Why Bother!

2009-04-08T03:46:00.000-07:00

You know that feeling... when you try really hard and you think you are doing the best job you can only to be told that you suck and you have a long way to go....

Thats what happened to me today and in all honesty its really the story of my life. Now this is not a "oh please feel sorry for me post" this is a, Im sick of this bullshit second grade crap post!

I obviously am not trying hard enough, THAT is what its boiling down too. I will not let this shit beat me again, never ever ever ever again.

I worked my arse of for an assignment at Uni, thought to myself, yay this should be a good mark, I barely friggen past!WTF!!!!!! 9.5 out of 15 thats 63%.

Oh to top it off, Im 109 mls !!!

Bugger dumb shit crap,lol.

Breathing deeply ..........

Not such a good day

2009-04-08T00:02:00.000-07:00

Well the title says it all. I have had friends from Victoria staying with us for the past few days and I have allowed myself to be a little lenient!

Today I was far too lenient and I ate too much, no excuses, I stuffed up!

I'm roughly five months out from comp and even though I have a little bit of size to me, I have WAY too much body fat. I need to knuckle down. My Intra goal for the next month is to lose in between 15 - 20 mls over all. Very achievable.

On the training front Im going great guns.

So gotta get a little meaner on the nutrition front!

What to eat...

2009-04-05T00:21:00.000-07:00

Well today is my free meal day, I have been thinking about what I really like and I thought to myself, " im not going out to buy a whole crapload of food, because.

a) I dont need need to be tempted to eat all the left overs tomorrow
and
b) There is already easter eggs here that I can eat!! lol

So I did.

I ate 4 then I had a big handful of snack biscuits and now Im going to have a BBQ dinner...... report in tomorrow. Getting my measurements done tomorrow!

Hope ur having a good one ::)

T.

2009-04-02T21:01:00.000-07:00

2009-04-02T21:00:00.001-07:00

2009-04-02T21:00:00.000-07:00

Fanfriggintastic!!

2009-04-02T20:44:00.000-07:00

Was messaging a friend of mine last night and we confided in each other our goals to compete this year, although I have made myself public my friend has not, all I can say is that she is awesome! So that's all I'm going to say about that.

Still feeling really positive about everything and I'm so focused that I get a determination fire in my stomach when I think about what I am about to achieve, weight is still coming down nicely and I can see my abs coming through, which is a good indicator for me cause that's usually the area that I can tell the most.

I reckoned I have defiantly gained a little mass over these past months cause my measurements are the same as the where about a year ago (not at my smallest) nearly but I'm a shitload heavier, but gaining muscle isn't a huge problem for me. Shedding the fat is!

Awesome workout today:

25 intervals 1 min on 1 min off
16km/h
7km/h

Glutes & Hammies!

Diets great:

m1 - oats & protein powder
m2 - chicken breast
m3 - sweet potato + chicken breast + Brussels sprouts + broccoli + squash
m4 - dunno yet, + coffee
m5 - potato, steak and steamed veg perhaps
m6 - yogurt maybe??

Oh and I'm down another kg!! bring it on :)

Running well!

2009-03-31T21:21:00.000-07:00

Well so far so good, have had some kick arse cardio sessions lately and I can feel myself getting fitter and fitter, Love it!

I teach my first body attack class on Monday and I am super hyped about that. Diet is going well and I'm just easing into to it at the moment. Today's little treat consisted of some black liquorice and soft jelly lollies.... mmmmm.

But Im right back on track :)

At the moment Im sitting on around 1600 cals which is pretty average for a 176.5 cm chicky, Im still having 1 coffee and 1 tea with sugar, tsk tsk, lol.

Im not going to kill myself with diet thing, I mean I want to put 100% into it but I think the moral of my story is smarter not harder.

Hope your having a wonderful day :)
Tiarna.

I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT!!

2009-03-30T14:41:00.000-07:00

YOU WILL BE SEEING ME ON STAGE IN SEPTEMBER 2009

Up she goes!!

2009-03-24T18:32:00.000-07:00

weight 80.7 lol.

Well that will teach me for having a piece of chocolate cake and 1 and a half donuts!!

Had a little bit of a partay yesterday, and I'm not really that upset at all that I had a couple of things I shouldn't have. Why? Because I STOPPED!!

I didn't have any more than that cake and donut, and that what I have been like for a couple of weeks now. I'm very proud of myself as its been a long long time since I have been able to do this.

I know that these little slip ups will cost me time but hey, I'm in no hurry. I'm learning this is my new lifestyle forever so, its gonna happen.

Everyday I tell myself its ok, you gonna get there.. you will get there.

Life is complicated if you let it be that way, it all boils down to choices. Well most of the time.

As horrified as I am

2009-03-22T01:33:00.000-07:00

Well this is what I'm looking like at 80kgs, now I'm putting this picture here as an absolute commitment of my goal. I'm embarrassed but what the hell, I know people usually wait till they look half decent before posting any photo's but THIS is how serious I am..

Keep watching here!!!

Who I wanna be whan I grow up

2009-03-21T17:21:00.001-07:00

This my Inspiration Maggie Diubaldo

http://figureathlete.tmuscle.com/free_online_article/features/10_ways_to_screw_up_your_fat_loss

Good Morning all,

I found this article last night and I thought it was of relavance to many who struggle with the ups and downs of dieting. Its simply written and its things most of us already know, but forget when it matters.

Cheers,

Trying something new!

2009-03-19T13:34:00.000-07:00

Weight - 79.7

Over the past week I have been eating allot more calories around the 1700 mark, now on this amount I have not been feeling deprived and my craving's are no way as intense OR is it possibly that my belief system is changing.

Instead of trying to fight of the cravings and going mental in the process I simple think about it, say hello to it and then I think about something else. Im on winner here, I just know it.

I know the cravings are purely in my head because I never have them in the morning or really late at night its ALWAYS between 3 and 7.

Ok, on a completely different note. Does anyone know much about child's speech? My youngest is turning 2 soon and is still not talking, I mean she kind of says dada and mama and ta. The child care worker who looks after her said that it could be something to do with her tongue, as she dribbles allot and her tongue sort of sits on her bottom teeth. I'm a little concerned but not stressed I know that she is healthy but it would be nice to make sure that everything is ok. So if anyone knows anything it would be a big help.

Cheers,
T.

What a morning

2009-03-18T13:34:00.000-07:00

Weight - 80.5

Well I decided that I would start morning cardio, Im not a huge walker and any one who knows mw knows that when I say im going for a walk to expect me to come home all sweaty. This morning was no different I got up at 5:15 and went for a 5k run, I was pretty happy with this effort as its been a while since I have gone for a run.

Ive started meditation too, this is my arty farty side but it makes a huge difference in your day when you sit and give yourself a little time.

Feeling great, positive and really truely ready.

take care
T.

I know what youre thinking

2009-03-17T14:10:00.000-07:00

So yes .... Im back ..... again......
New blog, fresh outlook.

My Confession:

I was going through a very rough time with my diet and nutrition .
I was ashamed of myself and my failures.
I gained 7 kgs and am currently sitting at 80.6 kgs
I was still binge eating.

But today it stops, there is no magic pill, no one can do it for me. I am in charge of what I believe.

The past is exactly that, I have processed and now I am forgetting it.

Im embarressed a little, so I hope that people read this and are Inspired to put themselves out and forget what they didnt do, should have done, could have done.

SO...

I have until the 15 th june to lose 8-10 kgs.

Here's to it!