Well long time no post , thought i would visit blog land and see how everyone is doing. Personally I feel like a 10 tonne tessie and feel horrible. A lady at my gym asked me this morning if I was feeling Sad or angry beacuse I dont look like what i did before, that and the fact the I dont think I have had ONE clean day since comp,lol. Whoops a daisy :)
My answer was NO! Im not sad and Im not angry, I mean sure it would be nice If i could easily get back on track but its very, very hard at the moment. I am struggling with the fact that If I want to look like that all the time, I am going to have to be strict like that all the time. Am I ready for that? Do I want it that bad. hmmmmmmm
So every night before I have been going to bed I have been telling myself that I wall get back into it, I know I will.
But Im not waiting for bedtime anymore, today I was fine till lunch then being lazy instead of cooking some vegies I ate bread with lemon spread, 2 icy poles and a fun size chocolate. Now normally I would keep eating crap, but not this time. Im not going to lose another day to absolute bullshit excuses. Im hardening up! It has only been three weeks since comp, I cant have completely undone my hard work.
Mentally I feel fine, which is strange, I guess its cause I have been here before. Hope everyone else is having an easier time post comp.